hmm...again, i am back after a long time. Recently I have a lot of thoughts and started to think of making this blog as my own diary. I guess it's qutie safe as no one will read it.
This time I wanted to record how my life is before I start my new life in an island/country which I have never stepped on--Singapore.
But before that, I want to describe a bit of how I came to that decision. I was actually always asking myself was I really having the right job for myself? Did I really put myself in the right place? Was I really the right one in this position? I always suspect whether I was suitable to the job or whether the job is suitable for me. But, I tried to give many reason to convince myself that may be I was just not adapted to the new environment and I will be better if I give myself more time. I asked myself to appreciate everything I have and don't complain.
Until one day, when my job scope started to change & the workload was so heavy until I needed to work late (almost) every working day. I was like a dead body everyday after work and had not personal life at all. It's so serious until I had to pause my piano lesson for two months. Sometimes, my tears bursted out and could wait no long enough for me to step into my car after I walked out of office. The1st time it happened, I was actually shocked as it's so unexpectedly, so uncontrolled and unstoppable! I was not afraid of anyone to see me in that condition as it's late, the sky was dark and the car park was so empty. I felt so sorry that my car had to wait for me until the sun passes the shift to the moon. It's such an unhealthy work style that engineers working hours are overlapping with the night-shifts-technicians working hours EVERYDAY. Do I deserve it? Although I am not the only one, but do we deserve it? May be they think worth it, but I really don't think it worths anything. My life became so miserable and I started to complain, and there're two experienced engineers gave me some advices. This time I was seriously considering the option that I always rejected i.e. to find a new job. As a start, I wanted to play safe, so I decided to find an internal job and started to ask around underground. But soon I realize, it's actually tougher to find internally and job in another company will be better choice as I could get better pay in that way too :P
So during the hectic life, I stole some times to ask favors from friends, use job street, prepare resume, prepare documents for interview, and started my life of waiting calls for interviews, took leave to attend interviews...etc.
One day, a friend who is working in S'pore came to visit my housemates and bring a news that her team is looking for new hires. And Walahhh! I got the offer after she sent my resume and after I attended 3 phone interviews. In the meantime, an job offer from A* came to me almost at the same thime. I did think and think and think and think(got the details of offer from A* on 3Nov, G* on 4Nov).........and finally I follow my heart -- go to explore while I am still "young" :P
I replied G* and rejected A* (on 8Nov). Surprsingly HR from A* called me again and request me to re-consider the offer with the pursuation that they will consider to increase my salary if I accept. Hmmm....my heart did shake awhile as the offer is indeed very interesting even without the further increment but still the urge of going to adventure is greater.
Plus, I can take this chance to leave the house I stay now and the housemates I have currently. Why? Will tell in my blog one day if I remember. heheh....
But there's one thing makes me so uncertain of my decision. How am I going to continue the pursue of my piano dream? Finally I told myself that "there's a will, there's a way!" I believe I will find a way to solve it there.
So I made my mind to make a big change and ended approximately two months of job hunting! I have never own any passport, never gone to oversea. A kampung girl finally decided to explore the world out of her comfort zone! I know I will have home sick there, hopefully there'll be medicine to cure the sickness.Hmmm.....
oh ya.................now, although after the resignation, my miserable working life hasn't stopped although it's much better than the previous intensive "work-late-life".
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